We all have good days and bad days. With Psoriosis it seems to be more bad days (at least healthwise). Yesterday was a rough one. I itched all day long - that's a tough one when you work with mostly men and your chest itches! Today I can laugh about it (even though it still itches). On top of that I have psoriosis on my lower stomach area. Even though I cover myself with aloe daily my skin decided to crack right at the line where my underwear hit. So I also spent the day pulling down my underwear in the front. Man if someone had a video camera going they would have thought I was really really weird trying to itch my chest and pull down my underwear without anyone noticing. Man I'm freaky :-)
I have to be honest though - today I'm laughing about it. Yesterday I cried instead. You know how when you have scalp psoriosis and you wear a black shirt the "dandruff" is horibble around your sholders. Well I had on a black bra yesterday. When I took it off the inside was literally covered just like dandruff from me itching all day long. I sat down on the bathroom floor and cried for awhile - begging God to make it go away.
Back in 2004 my second son passed away as a baby and my pastor said to me "Are you asking yourself why me?" I honestly answered no - why not me. It can happen to anyone. I feel the same way about my psoriosis.
Why not me - I'm no different than anyone else. (Although when people look at you like you're a freak they sure can make you feel different than everyone else.) Remember you are not alone. There are many many people out there with the same problems as us. Also - even though I might sit down and have a crying pitty part once in awhile I know without a dought there are others having a worse time. I've seen the pictures of the poor people with severe psoriosis covering their hands and feet. Trying to work or even walk could be very painful. I know men can and do get psoriosis on their "unmentionable" parts. I can't even imagine the pain they go through! Lots get arthritis from the psoriosis. I am lucky right now I only have the skin issues and not the joints.
I am so glad to know I am not the only one to sit down and cry sometimes. I know things could be worse for me, but sometimes you have to let it out I think. I itched alot yesterday too, I also have it on my stomach and in my panty line area also have it in the genital area and around my rectum this is an awful area to have it for obvious reasons. I have days where I can't use the bathroom without crying, so you are not alone I cry sometimes too. ~Jodie
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